May 2009
Sweet girl you were so cute for my birthday today. When I woke you up, you kept asking me to get you some panties, then you and Kendyl would start giggling.
Finally I opened your pantie drawer and there was a gift bag from James Avery in there. You both sat looking right at me as I opened the gift and it was a pair or heart earrings.
You said to me "one heart for me and one heart for Kendyl". This was a moment of Pure Joy!
I love you,
Mommy
I was able to PAY IT FORWARD today. A distraught five year old boy had obviously been over stimulated to the max and was attempting to beat up a women twice his size with kicks and punches. I saw her face and as she unsuccessfully tried to restrain him from running away into moving traffic and as she held him tightly taking multiple blows to the face with his little fist, my heart stopped beating.
My eyes swelled up with tears as the painful memories of restraining my daughter to control her from hurting me, others or herself flashed before my eyes. I tried to walk by without causing a scene but something came over me and I knew I could help.
I said "can I have him" and I held firmly saying "shhhhhhhhhhh" softly in his ear "it's ok". He continued the fight and I started rubbing his back and using a soft tone of voice so he could calm down. I let him know that he could not hurt me and that running was dangerous and we would not allow it for his safety. I sat down holding him firmly starting to rock back and forth letting go of my grip slowly, he became still and calm.
He did the same thing my Sky Sky did, snapped out of the fit and started talking clearly and ready for water.
Mentally exhausted from the reminder of where I had been but energized about the progress we have made and encouraged to continue speaking out.
A reminder to me and everyone that bad behavior does NOT always equals bad kid!
There have been many wise people that have helped me in my journey and it was an incredible blessing today to be able to PAY IT FORWARD!
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